Music calms the Soul

Beyonce and Kanye West help me through those hard days!!! Today was a bad day, i'm sure someone had a worst day than what I had but every has there own struggles. I am keeping my head up and staying prayed up because that's the only thing that I know will work in my favor!! MUSIC is very powerful though! Don't sleep on Queen B or Kanye!!

Good Ol' Times!!

I am chillin with two of the greatest people in the world here in Charlotte! Yes it is Mo and Des!! We have been through alot together as friends and our bond is tight as ever! I love these people and I wouldn't want it any other way. Growing up with them starting back in the 8th grade in Mannheim, Germany was great. We have see eachother at our lowest and highest points which makes the friendship so genuine. Without them I wouldn't be the same person I am today!! I am thankful for some true friends!!! God Good all the time and All the time God is Good!!!

Lost to love

It is piercing deep into my soul.
The feelings that I can't control.
It's love,
Stabbing me in the heart as if to kill me.
As if to drown me in my own tears of sorrow.
Who you were when you stepped into my life,
isn't who you were when you stepped out.
You've changed. I've changed. We've changed.
No longer two halves of a whole.
Because the holistic value of our relationship has disintegrated to individualism.
Instead of you and I it's now I and then you.
No more laughter and or tears.
No more conquering of our biggest fears because they are here.
Here in our present and we'll face them on our own.
Me without you and you without me.
Who is to blame when love beats you at its own game?
With only emotional heartache to gain.
Who is to blame when the communication is no longer verbal?
More like sending a text and you take it the way you want. It's a shame.
I lost. You lost. We lost.
Never to get back what was once love,
Or once peace, now our lives have to find a new meaning.
I've released, let go of the arrow binding us together
But I will always be by your side no matter the weather.
I’ll miss you and you’ll miss me
Just remember this was loves victory.


*Losing to love happened all to many times for me but I have finally conquered it!* God is Good!

New York

When I close my eyes I can see all the places that I have lived before. Washington DC, Hawaii, Germany, and my beautiful brith place North Carolina. But I must say my biggest adventure that I have waited many years for has to been New York! Sitting here in the hotel I can remmeber getting here yesterday and seeing the most amazing features of this City. It is the birthplace of my lovely Mother and I know being back is a breath of fresh air to her. I am excited to see what we have planned for today along with our family reunion. Be Blessed!!!

A New Day I haven't Seen Before

Last night I wen to bed with tears in my eyes because I felt as though things were happening around me that was out of my control. However when I woke up this morning I had a smile on my face. I realized that the reason these problems are out of my control is because they are not my problems to control. I have a close realtionship with each and everyone of my family memebers so when they go through things I feel as though I hvae to be the one to help them through. However it will only bring me down. I am finally learning that sometimes it is just better to let others deal with there own problems. So today is a new day. One that I haven't seen before and I am thankful to be able to smile once more.